Mental Health Update

Hi everyone! I hope you’re all doing well!

I don’t know how many of you still check out my blog on a regular basis, but you’ve probably noticed that I haven’t posted a lot about anxiety lately. This is in no way because I don’t struggle anymore (unfortunately, I still struggle a lot) or that I don’t care about mental health issues, but rather because when it comes to writing, I’ve been focusing on writing more positive things.

I feel it’s only right to update you on my mental health. As I mentioned, I still struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. The panic attacks aren’t nearly as bad and frequent, but the general anxiety is very difficult for me. I’m still trying on a daily basis to get through it. On a positive note, I have made a lot of progress in some areas!

In addition, unfortunately, I haven’t been exercising and facing my fears like I should. It’s a horrible trap to fall into – I think pure laziness and being occupied with other things has gotten in the way. On one hand, distracting my mind with working on my writing is a good thing, but on the other, I should definitely still be spending a lot of energy on working hard to get better. By just sitting around, my anxiety isn’t going to lessen or be easier to manage.

I want you to all know that I am still here for you – seriously. I’m not going to stop blogging about anxiety and mental health. If you need to talk, I’m here.

Please remember that the best way to get through anxiety is to do what works best for you. Taking small, manageable steps in facing fears is what I find personally helpful. It allows the anxiety sufferer to take their own, beneficial steps in order to overcome their obstacles.

Once again I hope you are all doing well.



Coming Soon: Exciting News!

Hey everyone! I have some very exciting news! I will soon be publishing my very first book EVER! I am so excited to share this special time in my life with all of you. After about one year of working on my story, I’ve finally finished and have come across the opportunity to publish it online. I want to thank all of you for your support with my writing!

While it is still a work in progress, due to the fact that I have not quite yet published the story, I have begun creating a new blog for my book! If you’d like, you can check out the blog here! You can also check out the blog by clicking the link located on the top menu of this blog. For now, the link is titled ‘Book Blog – Coming Soon’. The name will change after I publish the book. I will of course still do my regular posts on this blog, but information about the book will be available on the new one!

In addition, I will be writing a post letting you know when the book is officially published. I promise it will be very soon!

Publishing a book has been a long time dream of mine. I’m so happy that I’ll have the opportunity to publish my story and that I can share this wonderful news with all of you, some of whom have supported me for quite some time!

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Today I want to write about friendship. If you had asked me before I created this blog if it was possible to make true friends online, I’m not sure what I would have said. Honestly, I still find making real friends online tricky. Let’s face it, without actually seeing someone in person and being around that person, it’s hard to trust them.

Before I continue, I want to make something clear. I do not, under any circumstances, believe in giving out personal information online to people you don’t know (okay, maybe reliable companies, but that’s it). Without knowing who someone really is, giving away information that’s too personal can put you in a lot of danger. This should be avoided at all costs.

However, I do believe that true friendship can be found online. There are so many people in this world who are smart, caring, and most importantly – genuinely kind. Through writing this blog, I have found that so many people care for one another and empathize with one another. Also, I’ve seen people genuinely want to know how others are doing and that, I think, is amazing.

I’ve made some great friends through blogging, I really have. I feel so blessed that I’ve met these individuals and I really enjoy talking and connecting with them. If you asked me if they were my friends, I would tell you that, yes they absolutely are. Would I give these people extremely personal information about myself? No. However, I know they care about me and I care about them a lot too. I believe that if I needed their help, they would be there for me. Maybe they couldn’t drive or fly over to see me, but they would be here for me. If these individuals needed me, I would be there for them as well.

Blogging has taught me something amazing. There are so many of us who go through similar situations, who struggle with similar issues. There are so many people looking for help, guidance, and respect. You know what else? There are so many people who are kind, understanding, and willing to lend a helping hand.

I consider a great deal of you friends. Some of you I talk to more than others, but you are all important to me. Thank you for sharing your experiences and for caring about mine!

So please be careful online, but don’t totally dismiss the idea that true friendship online is possible!



The Spirit Animal Award!

I’ve been nominated by Gemma over at Lost to the Dark for The Spirit Animal Award! Thank you so much, Gemma! She is such a kind and caring person! If you haven’t already, please check out her wonderful blog.

The Rules:

  • Post the award picture on your blog.
  • Write a short paragraph about yourself and what your blog means to you.
  • If you could be any animal, what would you be?
  • Pick ten (I’m changing this to however many you want) nominees.

My name is B.G. and for as long as I can remember, I’ve loved to write. I hope to one day be a professional fiction author. While I don’t really have a specific genre in mind that I’d like to write, I do enjoy reading thriller and horror novels. My favorite authors include: Harlan Coben, James Patterson, John Saul, and Peter Straub. In addition to reading and writing, I enjoy watching TV.

For many years, I’ve struggled with anxiety. It’s incredibly difficult dealing with something that not a lot of people understand. However, after my dad recommended that I write about my anxiety, and after my therapist recommended that I start a blog, I found that I was not alone in my struggle. I also discovered that there are so many incredibly kind individuals who are willing to offer their support.

Through blogging, I’ve met so many friends and learned so many things about how to cope with anxiety. I’ve learned that there is no need to struggle alone and that in addition to my family and friends that I have met in person, there are others all around the world who are there to offer a helping hand.

Also, I’ve learned through writing on WordPress, that I can help others. Honestly, I didn’t really know that I had that ability until I began to share my experiences with others. I’ve also been able to connect with others who have given me additional opportunities to write. I am so thankful for everyone’s friendship and for the opportunities I’ve been given to write both through blogging on WordPress and on other blogs!

If I could be any animal, what would it be?

I’d be a dog. Dogs are so curious and intelligent. For the most part, they’re also really kind and gentle. I think they’re a lot smarter than we give them credit for!

My Nominees (in no specific order):

Mary from Mary’s Average Adventures

Kim from Peace, Love, and Patchouli

Sharon from Curious Queendom

Sandy from Sandycademy

Matt from In Silence We Suffer

Jen from The Anxiety Chronicles

Matt from The Seeds 4 Life

Amber from My Journey to Freedom from Anxiety

Carla from The Melodramatic Confessions of Carla Louise

Becky from In Becky’s Head

C. from You’re Not Alone In This World


Grains of Sand – February ’16

Here is a list of my accomplishments for the month of February. Again, I’d like to thank Sandy from Sandycademy for creating this great way to remind ourselves of the progress we’ve made!

-2 years of blogging!
• While a part of me feels slightly sad that I’ve been blogging for 2 years (since I started due to anxiety), I’m also very happy that I’ve been writing my blog for this long! I’ve met some great bloggers and friends and I love sharing my experiences with all of you!

-Finished reading Hell Fire by John Saul and wrote a review
• I’ve really enjoyed beginning to read again and John Saul is an amazing writer. Reading is not only a fun thing to do, but it’s far more educational than watching TV. While I still watch a lot of TV, I have started reading again which feels amazing!

-Sent in a couple of my poems to a magazine
• I’ve done this before but it’s always a little scary to take this step. However, I felt that my poems were good and I wanted to take the chance, so I did, and I’m proud of myself.

-Sent first chapter of story into story competition
• While I may not win the contest, every effort that a person takes towards accomplishing their dream counts. I took the time to submit my story!

-Wrote my 500th post on WordPress!
• I think this shows my progress as a writer, my progress in my journey to getting through anxiety, and my dedication to both as well!

-Was made a Homecoming Queen crown by Curious Queendom!
• I thought it was so nice of Sharon to give me this wonderful gift! She’s so creative and I’m honored to receive something so amazing!

-Figured out how to do something on my blog on my own that I wasn’t sure I could figure out
• This may seem like small potatoes, but I think it was a pretty good accomplishment! I set out to figure something out on my own and did just that!

-Finished reading If You Could See Me Now by Peter Straub and wrote a review
• This was a great book! I’m getting better at not stopping in the middle of books (the book gave me no reason to, but sometimes I still stop reading anyway).

-Made my own hotdog in the oven
• I know this may sound stupid and you may say, “So? That’s easy!”, but I’ve never really cooked anything other than putting stuff in the microwave. To me, this was an accomplishment!

-Put mini pizza in oven and cooked it
• Again, this may not seem like a big deal to some, but learning how to do this meant a lot to me and I consider it a big accomplishment!

-Made soup on stove


I consider all of these tremendous accomplishments! Feel free to visit Sandy’s blog and post your own Grains of Sand displaying your positive accomplishments!