First off, let me say that I understand that no one experiences anxiety in the exact same way. Secondly, let me assure you that I know just how difficult experiencing anxiety and panic attacks can be. It’s frustrating, heartbreaking, and at times – very, very scary. I also know how great it is to make progress and to witness yourself doing so. At the same time, though, it’s hard seeing bad days come between you and that joy.
I’ve been doing very well lately with getting through my anxiety. I’ve noticed a lot of progress being made on my end and I’m not afraid to say that I’m quite proud of myself. Two days ago, however, something happened. I had the first panic attack I’ve had in a while. I absolutely hated that feeling.
Having that panic attack made me feel like I was reverting to how I once was; taking a step in the wrong direction. That night was not easy for me and to make matters worse, I hardly got any sleep. The next day was okay, but last night was difficult again. I didn’t have what I would call a panic attack, but my anxiety was extreme and my legs felt like rubber beneath me. I felt weak, scared, and pathetic. I was also with someone less than understanding, so things were not in the least bit easy to deal with.
The truth is though that I am strong, able to get through my anxiety, and making a good amount of progress. Bad days can be saddening and frustrating, but they do not take away all that we’ve accomplished. Also, there are people in this world who might try to make us feel lousy for struggling – we need to try our hardest not to let them. Trust me when I say that I know how difficult that is. Still, we need to try. No one knows quite what we’re going through or how hard we’re trying except ourselves and we cannot allow others to take away our confidence.
Please know that it is okay to have bad days. Having bad days does not mean we’re not making progress or getting better. Also, bad days aren’t necessarily a sign of danger ahead – they’re just moments of struggle. We’re stronger than our anxiety and every day is a chance for improvement. Please remember that and never give up on your fight against anxiety.