Hey everyone! Just want to let you know that while I have changed the look of my blog, it still has the same posts and information as always! I think the new look is fitting since, while anxiety and mental health issues can make life a bit prickly, with hard work and faith in ourselves, life can be quite beautiful as well.
I hope you enjoy the new look of my blog and have a great day!
Hey everybody! I hope you’re all doing well!
So, I’ve been feeling a bit depressed lately. As many of you may already know, I don’t have a job and I still live at home due to my anxiety. I don’t wish to share my age online, but usually, people are on their own and working by this time in their life. I admit that this weighs on me – I would love to have a job by now and maybe even live on my own. I want to be more independent and unfortunately, my anxiety often stands in my way.
Another thing that always bothers me is the idea that I may never get through my anxiety and be able to do the things I want to do. I don’t always want to be held back due to fear standing in the way of success.
I also admit that sometimes I look at my success over the years and feel that I haven’t made enough progress. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for a long time now and I feel like, maybe, I should be a lot better by now. Here’s what I realized earlier today though – I have made progress and I can continue to do so if I keep working my hardest.
That’s the thing – if we’ve made progress, then that right there is proof that we can continue to do so. Maybe we won’t improve overnight, but with time and effort, we can overcome our anxiety and other obstacles.
I know that I’ve mentioned all of these things before, but I really do believe that it’s important to remind ourselves of our ability to get through the hardest of times. We cannot allow ourselves to forget just how amazing and capable of success we all truly are.
The things people say to us can be hurtful – period. We’d all like to be able to just shrug off rude comments, but it’s not always that simple. Especially when mean things are spoken by those who love us, it can be difficult not to let what is said effect us.
Today a close relative said something very, very hurtful to me. Not only did it insult my intelligence, but it reminded me of just how much I struggle with anxiety and how much pain it truly causes me. Also, the words that were spoken by my relative showed their lack of faith in me and the lack of faith they have in the possibility of me being successful – something that is never easy to hear from someone you love.
I’m not going to lie. I started wondering if the words spoken held some merit. Maybe I deserved to be spoken to so unkindly. Maybe I don’t deserve to be believed in. After all, I have suffered from anxiety for a long time and sometimes I even wonder if I’ll ever get through it and be able to overcome my obstacles enough to have a job, etc. It can be hard to know what to believe when there are people around you making you believe that you’re hopeless.
What I need to remember though – what we all need to remember – is that I have made progress. We need to remember that as long as we continue to work hard, that we will continue to make even more progress. It may be hard for us to believe, but we have to have faith in ourselves – no matter if others do or not.
It might be hard sometimes to focus on your accomplishments. Especially in the heat of negativity being thrown your way, it can be hard to dismiss it as untrue. I think we all tend to question whether or not the cruel comments of others are true, especially if they deal with something that bothers us on a regular basis. However, we can’t be tempted to give up on ourselves – we have to show ourselves that we can succeed! We do deserve to be believed in!
I hope you all enjoyed the holidays and had a wonderful weekend!
Yesterday, for Easter, I went out with a couple relatives to visit my aunt and uncle. Let me tell you that I had a great time. Usually when I go out to someone’s house, I tend to spend my time sitting on the couch. However, this time, I got up and walked around without any trouble and truly enjoyed myself. Though my anxiety did hold me back from a few things, I’m proud to say that I think I did the best I’ve done in a while at my aunt and uncle’s!
In addition, while usually when I get home I feel a little drained, I didn’t feel as weighed down by the burden of anxiety. I felt relatively calm and went on to get a few things done and then relax.
The reason I’m sharing this experience with you is because, whether you haven’t felt this way in a while or you rarely feel relaxed when going out, it is possible. With hard work and a lot of practice, you can overcome your anxiety and get back to feeling ‘normal’.
It felt truly amazing for me to spend time with my family and be able to walk around the house at times without feeling too overwhelmed. It felt great for me to walk in and out of the house without feeling the need to hold onto somebody. I made sure to really soak up the feeling of success.
What I experienced yesterday was proof that I have the strength to overcome my struggles – I don’t have to be enslaved by my anxiety. You don’t have to be either! I wish you all the best and please remember that you can get through this!