WARNING: This post details an issue that I’m struggling with. If you suffer from reading about certain issues and then making them your own, you may want to precede with caution.
As of late, I’ve been feeling a little better when it comes to my anxiety. While still not exactly where I want to be, I have noticed myself making more progress and I am quite grateful!
I recently started taking a different medication and while I can’t be sure, I do think that it might be helping with my anxiety. I also think that I’m feeling better over all on the medication. However, I do admit that while in the process of taking the pill in its crushed up form, it doesn’t taste so great. Let’s just say that due to overthinking, I’ve been feeling a bit sick every time I take the medication lately.
As mentioned above, I know that the reason I feel this way is due to overthinking. I think about feeling sick so much, that I almost make myself feel this way. I don’t do this on purpose, mind you, but it’s become almost a habit.
Last night, it happened again. I thought about getting sick so much that when I took the medication, I felt like I was going to throw up. I know that a way to solve this problem is to focus on something else while taking the medicine, but it’s not always that easy. After taking the medicine (I did not get sick), I was upset. I was upset that my anxiety seems to constantly try to take control of my life and make me feel miserable.
When I was seeing my therapist, he had told me something very important. Even though we want to get through our anxiety, our minds have a way of trying to throw us off. Our anxiety tries to swoop in and take over.
We cannot let our anxiety take over. I know that this can be difficult, but it’s a necessity. Please try to focus on something else when you’re struggling. Watch something on TV, read a book, try to think about something positive. Also, if you do end up struggling, try not to beat yourself up. Try to concentrate on all the positive achievements you have made. You will get through this!