If you struggle with anxiety or another mental health issue, you may find yourself constantly doubting your strength and abilities. Let me just tell you, that you are not alone. Just yesterday I was questioning how anyone could find me inspirational as there were a couple of times during the day where I felt quite, well…pathetic.
However, last night, I really realized something. I am strong and capable of getting through my anxiety. Yes, I may need some help along the way, but that doesn’t make me weak.
I had a pretty good day yesterday. I went to church in the morning (which was a bit difficult, but I managed to get through it), I spent time at home with my family, and then I went out to visit a relative in the hospital.
Going to the hospital was the most nerve-wracking part of the day for me. It’s hard for me to go out as it is sometimes, and going to the hospital is always a little stressful, even if you’re not there for yourself.
While I did ask for help when it came to getting around, I was very proud of myself. For one thing, I went to the hospital to visit my relative in the first place. There was a time where I may not have even tried. As horrible as that might sound, anxiety can make it extremely hard to do things – even if they are things you know you should do. Also, while I did get help when it came to walking into and out of the hospital, I did relatively well while visiting my relative and didn’t struggle as much as I usually might while going out.
I know how difficult it can be to be proud of ourselves. Whenever we struggle, it can seem like a constant reminder of our issues having the ability to take control. What we have to remember, though, is that while we may face many challenges, we also experience many victories – that is what we must focus on.
Yesterday, I did many great things. I went to church and stayed the entire time, I had a great time celebrating Christmas at home with no anxiety, and I went to the hospital to visit my relative; not asking to leave before my family was ready. The fact that I may have struggled a little here and there is not what’s important, but that I did an overall good job and got through my anxiety, is what matters.
Next time you accomplish your goals, remember to be proud of yourself! Don’t spend too much energy focusing on the negative when you could be focusing on the positive!
I hope you all had a great holiday!