I think it’s common for anxiety sufferers (especially when the individual has experienced times of freedom from anxiety), to look back on when they were better with a sense of longing and sadness – sadness that things that were once easy, now seem difficult.
Today I went out with my family and while I did pretty well, I was upset that I struggled a little. I thought about how just a few years ago, I was in college doing things on my own. Now, things that I never thought would seem difficult, sometimes do.
However, after mentioning to my dad how this fact upset me, he brought up a good point. While it might be upsetting to see myself struggling so much, I should also realize that I struggled even more at one point that I do now. There are things that, while still challenging due to my anxiety, are getting a little easier again. My dad was right, there are definitely areas in which I am improving and while I still need to work even harder, I’ve made progress because I have taken the steps to do so. I’m grateful that I’m making progress and I should be proud of myself. In many ways, I am proud of myself.
Sometimes it’s hard to see the light through the darkness. As cliche as that sounds, it’s true. Next time you feel a sense of sadness and defeat due to struggling and remembering how you were doing much better, remember all of the progress you have made!