Yesterday when I was at the bank and struggling, I told my mom that I was sorry. I don’t think she believed me.
As I’ve mentioned, I think a big issue with anxiety is that some of the people we know who don’t experience anxiety, don’t believe that we struggle so much. It seems that for some reason, some individuals are under the impression that we either (a) fake our anxiety, (b) do it for attention, (c) do it out of immaturity/fear of growing up or, (d) enjoy it. There’s also the possibility that they think we go through anxiety for all of the above reasons.
The sad truth is, that these people may never understand that the above statements aren’t true. Honestly, I think there are some people in the world that will never understand what we go through and will never have the patience to deal with it in a kind, loving way. Now, I’m not saying that these people don’t love us or that they perhaps don’t try their best, but what I am saying is that they may never be able to help in the way that we know to be the most helpful.
Like I said, this fact is sad and unfortunate. However, something that is really upsetting is when I apologize and I feel like it’s not believed to be a genuine apology. The truth is that I am sorry. I’m sorry that I struggle. I’m sorry that I sometimes need the help from others to get through what should be simple things. I’m sorry that I sometimes upset others by being so anxious and needing so much assistance!
I think a big reason that the phrase “I’m sorry” might seem so insincere to some is because those who do not deal with anxiety are often under the impression that we can just make our anxiety stop, or that we should be able to. I think some individuals think that if we’re truly sorry, we can and should just stop struggling. As we all know though, it doesn’t always work this way.
Getting through anxiety is often an ongoing process, one that takes hard work and commitment to achieve. Just because things are difficult, we struggle, and we might ask for a lot of help, doesn’t mean that we’re not sorry. What it means is that we go through something that is really hard to manage and cope with.
When I apologize, I mean it. In fact I’ve never apologized and not meant it – ever. I’m truly sorry for putting people through this, for asking them for their help and for requesting so much of them. Also, I’m sorry that I go through this at all. I would love not to struggle with anxiety and I would love not to ask for so much help and feel like I need it. And you know what? I am working on getting better. It may not always seem like it, but it’s true.
So remember, if someone doesn’t believe that you’re sorry, it’s not your fault. Some people just can’t understand what we go through or don’t have the patience. It doesn’t mean they don’t love us, it just means that they don’t understand or find it difficult to grasp something that they personally, don’t struggle with. I wish you all the best and remember, you are not alone and there are people who care and who are happy to help! Also, you are not a burden! Period.