So the last few days have gone really well for me. I’ve been practicing a lot more and while I’ve still been experiencing some anxiety, I’ve been doing really well for the most part. Today I was doing fine up until about an hour or so ago when I slowly started to get more and more anxious. Before I knew it, I felt like I could hardly do anything.
I hate it because people wonder what’s wrong with me and how I can go from feeling one way to another. The problem is though that even I’m not absolutely sure why it happens. Sure, I think I might know but I’m not positive. Sometimes it seems easier to push through the anxiety and sometimes it really does seem impossible.
Another thing that I’ve found bothersome is that when you’re doing well people might acknowledge it but when you’re not doing well, it’s as if all of a sudden everything you’ve done well over the last few days either seems to vanish or seems to give them something to remind you of, but not in a good way. Instead of saying something like, “You have the strength, you’ve gotten through this before”, they somehow sometimes seem to infer that something’s wrong with you because you’re not having a good day or a good moment.
What do you do when this happens? Sometimes whether or not others are sympathetic or whether or not you understand why you’re all of a sudden really anxious, you just have to remind yourself of how strong you are and if you still struggle, remember that you just need to try even harder next time. Don’t put pressure on yourself, just remind yourself that you CAN get through this!